Love, not labels.

2011-05-05T22:28:00.002+08:00

Oh my, oh my. JC life really, really sucks. I can't get over it. It's fun, so much more fun than secondary school, but the schoolwork really kills. I swear. Tests only serve to demoralize you. I don't see anything else they achieve. Test after test after test. Some things are new; how can we grasp it so fast? I don't know. Maybe it's just me, maybe I'm not intelligent enough. It's a pretty much demoralizing time for me.

I don't know what happened to me during training yesterday. I couldn't do anything properly. Except sprint. HAHAH WELL DONE ABIGAIL.

I totally underperformed today. STUPID NAPFA. I couldn't even get a minimum of C for all 5 items. What's happening. And handball was so totally screwed up. Put in so much effort; I guess I was tired. We didn't even win anything, if I'm not wrong. Damn.

Ah whatever. Off to work on the subject that I'm always failing.

2011-04-26T22:45:00.001+08:00

Term 2 is just hellish. Thank God for the much needed break tomorrow; we're going to support the FB girls (: Get to leave school at 12 05 oh yeahhhhhh.

I've never felt this tired before; my sleep debt is enormous. HAHA.

Ahhhhh. I feel so loveddddd :)

2011-04-24T21:13:00.002+08:00

Totally not in the mood now. Was shellshocked with a piece of news this morning, been feeling dazed ever since.

Learnt a valuable lesson today. Always treasure the people you have around you, no matter how much or how little they mean to you. Because you never know when you will actually lose them forever.

What am I doing online. There's no Microsoft Office for me to use but I'm just wasting my time here. I really don't have the mood to do anything now. I'm tired but I don't want to sleep yet.

Tomorrow's going to be an awfully long day for me. Oh, what the hell.

2011-04-20T22:00:00.002+08:00

It's been a week since I've posted and it feels like much longer than that. Each week seems to be pass by super fast but yet everytime I think back it feels like whatever happened earlier in the week happened before that. Okayyyy never mind I sound so incoherent here; whoever reads this will just get confused that was a convoluted bunch of rubbish HAHAH.

Hmm. Let's see. It hasn't exactly been the best of times since last week. I can't even remember what happened last week! Oh, right. My piano teacher said I improved although I didn't really touch the piano before my lesson hehe. Maybe it's true, not practising might actually help you to improve, illogical as that sounds. 'Cuz that's what happened during FB today! I'm sooooo happy; today's training was awesome!!

Okay I'm boreddddd.

2011-04-13T21:35:00.002+08:00

Why am I always sleepy ._. Oh, rhetorical question Abigail! It's because you have horrible time management and that makes you unable to complete your work on time, and it also makes you unable to sleep early! Or at least, get adequate sleep. And you know, the strange thing about me is when I'm doing my homework, I can't seem to get anything done. So when I finally reach my limit and tell myself I'm going to sleep NOW, I can't because I keep worrying about the amount of things I've left undone. I'm freaking out for my 2 Lit essays because I need hours just to do one, and the whole week has just shot by like that.

Oh well.

2011-04-12T22:26:00.002+08:00

Tired tired tired. And there's training tomorrow noooooo...

Sigh. Econs is the hardest subject ever, I swear. Why is it so hard to score?! You may have all the knowledge in the world, but if you CAN'T apply it to the question, and if your essay writing skills suck BALLS, then it's goodbye to even a PASS for you.

I'm so tired.

2011-04-11T22:11:00.002+08:00

Today was a much much better day! (: I was only sleepy during Lit HAHAHAH. Although I shouldn't be sleepy at all.. But the sleep debt is just killing me so I just have to make the best of it.

Lit lecture was kinda cool today! I learnt a new word 'voyeurism' LOLOL. But hmm y'all can go find out the meaning of the word yourself! It's a little too explicit to be posted here so yeah, you can enrich your vocabulary a little, especially for you Lit students.

Math tuition was good too (: Although GT needs a hell lot of practise! The moment you neglect it for a while you just forget everything; your mind becomes a complete blank whenever you face a GT question no matter how easy it might actually be. Nooooo ): AND I HAVE A MATH TEST TMR ): ): I hope I can do decently for it since I totally flunked my GT2 class test.. Sianjipua HAHAH.

Byezz (:

2011-04-08T23:10:00.003+08:00

Ahhh. I feel so liberated.

The whole of the past week has been simply hellish. Or maybe I'm just not adapting well.. Either way. I'm glad this week has passed. I really, fervently hope the following weeks will be better, although obviously the stress will NOT be abating anytime soon; it'll only get worse.

I never knew thinking of a PI for PW could be that stressful. After so long I've only come up with an acceptable FIRST idea; my teacher rejected my application ): But at least I made some progress! LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE.

People are starting to bend under the stress. Sigh. It's so scary. It's only April and it's this bad; how're we going to cope with the rest of the year? I still feel awfully lost for subjects like Econs and Math.. Ms Ee said our Econs test was 'atrocious'. It's so bad that she has to resort to conducting extra lessons for us although she normally doesn't believe in it. Wts. Demoralizing much. And when PW kicks in in full force... I dread to think of it.

Kay I should stop soliloquizing and concentrate on slacking my ass off for what's left of the day today..

2011-03-30T22:41:00.002+08:00

Had a pretty sucky week so far.. I think I'm just not getting enough sleep but too bad, I can't rectify that problem; it'll only escalate get worse.

Okay I guess I'm just blogging like that 'cuz I'm not exactly in the best mood. So.. bye.

2011-03-27T21:13:00.002+08:00

Helloz.

I don't quite know what to say about today. I woke up still feeling horribly exhausted and I think I might be getting sick.. My nose has been stuck since yesterday but I don't feel too bad physically.. I think? My eyes still feel small and swollen ): They've been like that since Friday, I think. They got so itchy I rubbed and rubbed until they hurt, what a loser. HAHAHA.

I HATE ECONS.

2011-03-26T18:02:00.002+08:00

Ahhhh. Had a fitful sleep last night and I'm superrrrr tired right now but hey, at least I feel better (: Ikr, I'm contradicting myself but that's okay!

Anywayz. Went for the Lit Symposium today with Roy, Vidhya, Eugene and a few of the other girls from the other classes taking H2 Lit (: It was awezzzzommmeee although it was incredibly sapping :/ The lecturers were cool and I'm glad I had the opportunity to go for this Symposium 'cuz apparently there won't be one next year HAHAHA. Unfortunately 2 out of the 3 texts that were lectured on today were texts that I hadn't read up on yet so... ): Hehe but never mind it's okay at least the notes will come in handy when I finally do the texts. WH was the most fascinating lecture, I think. It totally changed my viewpoint of it; WH is actually 'controlled' by the dogs, in a sense! Cooooliozzz.

Okay. I'M GOING FOR BUFFET NOW YAY :D

Explode.

2011-03-24T22:23:00.002+08:00

I swear, I am almost at breaking point. Piano twice a week without warning? How am I going to get in any practise? Seriously.

My mind was churning so badly just now I couldn't even do my Math. Can someone tell me what to do, please. Omg !#76%#*!@(*!^$*(@Y. To think I was so happy just now. Why does it always have to happen like that? Why must I always feel like that after I feel happy? WHY WHY WHY. Why does it always have to be so drastic. Why. Why. Why. ANSWER ME.

Omg I AM SO SCREWED LA. I don't know what's going on in my mind. I desperately need to complete my homework, yet when I try to do it, I can't concentrate. Because I'm distracted. Not for the reasons you might think. There are just too many things happening right now. SHIT. Like, which position should I sacrifice. The dumb Chrystal one, or Lit rep, that I love so much? Heck. I don't care if being a subject rep doesn't reflect as well on my portfolio. TO HELL WITH CHRYSTAL. Crystal with a 'h'? Seriously?!

OKAY WHATEVER.

Overwrought.

2011-03-22T22:39:00.002+08:00

I feel like I'm going to burst. Not good AT ALL. I don't know what's wrong with me. I've been feeling so scared lately. I realize I've been telling everyone I'm scared about something. Wts?! What's wrong with me, seriously. I HATE feeling like that. And why must it be that I'm perfectly fine in school; I can even comfort people, but when I come home it all hits me so hard?! Why why why.

2011-03-20T22:46:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone (:

Today was a much better day compared to yesterday. Church was awesome, somehow! (: And lunch with churchies was great although it was only 4 of us.

Kayzz I don't have much to say byeeee!!

2011-03-19T17:58:00.002+08:00

Had a pretty much um, not so good day today. Screwed performance class; now I have nowhere to hide my face. Maybe I'm just taking it too hard because I felt so terribly unprepared for my piece. I HATE MY BACH PIECE. I've been practising so hard for it but what use is it? It didn't help this time; and somehow I doubt it will for the next. Which, by then, would be too late. GOOD LUCK TO YOU, ABIGAIL.

2011-03-10T20:49:00.009+08:00

This is so screwed, I swear. You've moved from checking texts from people you're suspicious of (which, by the way, you have NO RIGHT to be), to checking texts from my close friends. Wtf. What the hell is wrong with you?! Can't you just let me be and let me have some freakin' privacy?! How many more years of this SHIT must I put up with? Tell me. I'm sick and tired of it. And DON'T come telling me you are too, 'cuz if you hadn't been so paranoid, NONE OF THIS WOULD BE HAPPENING NOW. Agree? Why yes, of course, because logically, there would be no other answer! You are just overreacting, in case you didn't know. Tell me something. What if I could prove to you that despite all these 'distractions' I'd still do decently? Would you have anything to say? I really don't think so. Oh and I really appreciate the added stress of having to prepare for my LTCL.

And hey, you know how I keep falling asleep at home right? Would you EVER consent to letting me study in school? NO! Why? Because you think I'll be doing some stupid hankypanky rubbish with 'all the wrong people'. Hey, THAT'S WHERE YOU'RE WRONG. VERY, SADLY, WRONG. Okay? Got that? Oh yes. And STOP talking to me like I'm not studying. Would you like to be in my shoes today? Oh yes! I think you should give it a shot! Go, go on! I'm sure you'd just love it. And being in my position includes experiencing all the SHIT you give me all the time, almost everyday. Do you know that you're adding unnecessary stress on me like that. Do you not see me struggling to keep awake and study every night? And you keep bugging me to sleep. What is wrong with you guys?! Seriously, like, stop contradicting yourselves.

Ahh whatever. FML is all I can say.

2011-03-08T22:20:00.002+08:00

JC LIFE IS SO HECTIC ):

I'm so horribly lost for Math and Econs and I don't even have time to revise the notes, let alone read beforehand. JC's eating up my free time ): And now I have to prepare for my LTCL ahhhh O.M.G HELPPPPPPP ): I'm not even halfway through my preparation for all my pieces..

Kay I can't concentrate!

2011-03-03T22:15:00.002+08:00

I don't feel so tired today heh. Or at least, I'm tired but not falling asleep, which is good news! I managed to finish a substantial amount of homework; I'm so proud of myself (:

Gahhh. Why must you find out the people I talk to on msn? What does it matter if the people I talk to consist mainly of guys as compared to girls? Sigh. You guys have to seriously stop being so paranoid. TYVM.

2011-03-02T22:39:00.001+08:00

I'm half deaddddd ): Goodness. How am I going to survive JC at this rate. PW hasn't even started!! Gahh.

2011-03-01T22:09:00.002+08:00

Ahh. Emo-ed in the morning today HAHA. L said I looked awful! But it's okay, I'm over it now. Who cares, why brood?

The glass staircase stank like a wet market this morning I don't know why it was so horrible!

Kay I'm so annoyed with myself. I've been falling asleep over my work everyday and that makes me unable to concentrate which really, really sucks. Sigh.

Floorball tomorrow! And I'm so proud of myself. I played a World Math Day game and I was initially lagging behind those other dudes from other countries but I WON THEM HAHAHAH :D :D

2011-02-28T22:09:00.002+08:00

YAY YAY OMG MY STAMINA HAS IMPROVED!! HAHA yes I know it's a lame, trivial thing to be so happy about but yes, I'm super happy! That means that I won't have to die so often and so badly during every PE session HAHA. I actually felt pretty good after the run.. I was close to laughing at people who were dragging themselves up the stairs like how I used to! LOLLL. Okay actually I think I should shut up before what I've just spouted becomes the reverse on Saturday :/

Anisa and I might be going to buy our court shoes on Saturday after Road Race yay!!!

Wtf. Killjoy.

2011-02-27T22:12:00.002+08:00

I don't know whether I'll be ready for my LTCL when the time comes. Sigh. My pieces aren't even up to speed (for some) and the rest are just.. not there yet! And I've already registered for it. Which means there's no turning back. Omg I feel like crying.

2011-02-26T23:05:00.002+08:00

I bought my beautiful UNIHOC floorball stick yesterday; it's white and redddddd :D And it's embossed how awesome is that! But omg JC is really sapping me. I've never felt more tired than I felt yesterday.

We have an Econs test on Monday isn't that madness? And in the first or second week of school we had a Math test wow! Awesome much. All the same.. I don't regret coming to JC. Especially MJC!! And I really really love Lit :D Unfortunately it's the only subject I feel confident for.. Which is NOT a good thing. Math is totally killing me; I'm so frustrated!!!! ):

Ahhhhh. Janael is so nice LOVE YA! ♥

Horrible.

2011-02-23T22:40:00.002+08:00

I wasn't in a very good mood today; I think my mood was constantly fluctuating which is so dumb. I hate it when I'm like that. When people laugh, I don't. When people are high, I'm not. I'm so tired everyday I'm falling asleep over my homework. I totally envy Dot, she never falls asleep while doing her work.

Floorball was an utter failure today. Ahhh whatever.

2011-02-22T21:20:00.002+08:00

It's been almost a week since I've blogged! Wow. HAHA.

School has been really tiringgggg ): At least it's fun though. Sigh. I feel so bad I totally failed at being the Literature rep.

Omg I'm so tireddddd. Bye.

2011-02-16T22:39:00.002+08:00

Wow. Today's Econs lecture was the first and only time when I actually understood what the lecturer was talking about and didn't feel bored HAHA.

Anyway. I got elected the Chrystal ambassador for my class Jansen said I fail ): Saddddd. Apparently the Chrystal ambassador is the equivalent of the class vice chairperson which does NOT bode well for me. I have a whole lot of things to do. Plus I'm the Lit rep and I had to do a mass contact thingy just now gosh. It made me so flustered I couldn't do my work properly HAHA.

Kaysxzx. I'm horribly sick. ):

2011-02-15T21:22:00.002+08:00

Dead beat. I can't believe it, it's only the second day of my permanent timetable and I'm like, dying. And it'll only get worse. HOW AM I GOING TO SURVIVE OMG.

11A101! ♥

2011-02-14T21:21:00.002+08:00

Mr Low is the most awesome teacher ever, seriously. Awfully Chocolate chocolate truffles for us omg!! *swoons* And Literature was so fun! I could just have Literature the whole day and not utter a single complaint.. Except maybe my brain might be fried but the lessons are just so enjoyable! Especially since I've started becoming more active in class discussions HAHA. Literature lessons used to be really passive for me in the past because I used to feel awfully uncomfortable sharing my opinions and insights in front of the rest of the class ): Wastedddd.

Alright. I shall go and prepare for the Math test tomorrow *gasps*

2011-02-12T14:04:00.002+08:00

I'm so sadddddd. Anisa got a text from Miaoling (the floorball captain) that notified her that she has been shortlisted for floorball. Omg. I'm so saddddd.

2011-02-10T21:56:00.002+08:00

Today was a rather eventful day! MJ is a superduper fun school! Love it hahaha. The first part of the day was filled with horrible talks but the animal abuse talk was so moving.. I cried when I watched one of the videos in which they extract bile from the sun bears. Omg it's so sad.. ): I am so going to make 'acres' my CIP project!!

Floorball!!!! I THINK I got in but I wouldn't say I'm definitely in.. It's so fun omg! But I totally dread their PT sobsob. They make you run 8km and I'll DIEEEE. -cuts throat-

I LOVE LITERATURE :D And Mr Low is so funny HAHA. He said he's accident prone.. Which doesn't bode well for him! But will be the source of entertainment for us (whoops I know that was quite mean!) HAHA. Oh yeahhh and 11A101 has many musically talented people yay! :D Class musical HAHAH. :D

2011-02-08T20:26:00.002+08:00

I love my cliqueeeeee!!! :D They are the awesomest bunch of people!! And I love Abi Tan HAHAHHA :D She's so adorable and likable! Hmm. Wanted to watch a movie to while the free periods away but there were no time slots so we booked for Thursday ): Boohoo.

I LOVE YOU GUYS! ABI, ANISA, SARAH, AND GWEN! :D

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2011-02-07T21:21:00.002+08:00

Omg today was so stressful! Although we did have many free periods which will soon be taken up by 'Literature Reading Periods', according to Mr Low. I'm so looking forward to Literature whooo! Wuthering Heights is the nicest book ever! Heh. I can't wait to watch MacBeth yay it's going to be so fun!!!! :D

Today was horribly tiring though! Sigh. It'll only get worse ):

2011-02-06T22:46:00.002+08:00

FB photo upload seriously sucks. I've been trying and trying for ages to upload like, a pathetic number of photos but apparently such 'feats' are impossible to accomplish. Oh wellz. And the stupid Facebook exporter for iPhoto doesn't work because it's a plug-in which makes it not compatible with the desktop grr. I don't want to take up space in Dot's iPhoto by asking her to help me do it so, GOODBYE to all my future photos.

School's starting tomorrow oh man! Never mind I love MJ!

2011-02-03T20:11:00.002+08:00

Visiting today was.. alright. Although it was boring and awfully, horribly sweltering. Somehow I think I didn't get that many ang baos ):

Emmanuel was cranky today oh man. But he looked so cute in his little red 'dress' and hat with the plait heh! Oh yeahhh and I love my leopard print dress HAHA. It's so comfortable! I think I dressed pretty sensibly today; I didn't wear any killer heels!

Kaysxzxz. I miss C1 ):

MOVE IT, CALLISTO!

2011-02-02T15:55:00.002+08:00

Aww mansxzxzxz.... Why did orientation have to end today!!! Just when we were getting to know our OGLs better sigh. I really felt sad when we had to leave! ): And orientation this year was cut short because of CNY. Go away la! I could do with the ang baos but if that means neglecting any opportunities to get closer to people then, NO WAY! ):

My OGLs are so awesome.. Sigh. They're so nice and fun! I'll never forget them! Today was the most awesome day ever. Getting wet was so fun heh. But I don't like people who play with water bombs just so they can have their own fun!

I LOVE CALLISTO 1!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2011-02-01T19:29:00.002+08:00

O.M.G. I AM SO TIRED. ): Having to run around for the whole day was NOT fun at all, especially when you're trying your best to keep up but it's just your luck that the bulk of the group runs so fast. And is so enthusiastic. Sigh.. My legs are never going to recover, at the rate we're going. They've been aching horribly since Sunday and all this running is not going to help one bit; it'll only accentuate and prolong the pain. Now even my feet are aching!

Well. At least there are wet games tomorrow HAHA. And CNY celebration after that so we get to go home early thank goodness! Although I'm a little apprehensive for when schoolwork starts; I'm afraid I might not be able to discipline myself to sit down and at least clock in some hours of reasonable studying. R is doing the same combination as me yay! Hahahaha.

Kay I'm too tired.

2011-01-31T20:46:00.002+08:00

Today was a whole lot more fun than the first 2 days. For one, I was in a different group and that made all the difference, really. And, I'm in Callisto! Which is, in effect, the most enthusiastic house! The only drawback is that I was suffering for the whole of today because my legs were aching terribly from yesterday's games. And they were overused today again so whenever I sit down on the floor and get up I hurt so badly! ):

But that aside, I had so much fun today!!! And I'm so looking forward to tomorrow! :D Yay!

2011-01-30T19:40:00.003+08:00

The Sound of Music is definitely a real classic! It's timeless and I can really watch it over and over again and not get tired of it at all. Hahahaha. The songs are so beautiful although they comprise of simple melodies; the lyrics are so artfully crafted (: Hmm. And the union between Maria and Georg was so sweet and unexpected. Rodgers and Hammerstein are really an amazing duo! I'm glad I studied 'Oklahoma!' for MEP, at least it let me gain some insight into the lives of these amazing people hahahaha.

WGD failed today because, ironically, it was raining out. So in the end we played in the Joshua Hall; we still had loads of fun! Ebola, Marco Polo, sleeping bag-jumping, human foosball, twisted musical chairs and pepsi cola HAHAHA. It was so fun! And it was kinda a good thing that there weren't too many people otherwise the room would've been too crowded.. Anyway. Thank you Kenneth, Jiawei and Shaun for organizing it! I really enjoyed myself! Although I really suffered during Marco Polo HAHAHA. It was so scary seeing only shadows and lights; I was so scared of falling down hehe.

Alright. Bye!

2011-01-29T22:35:00.003+08:00

Why does everyone choose to be in the Science stream!!! Gosh. What's so great about it mansxzx. The arts stream is so much more fun and I think it stimulates more parts of the brain.. Because it needs you to be insightful! Rather than just plain understanding a subject and applying boring formulae HAH. Never mind! To me, Science is just plain boring.

I really really hope orientation will be fun! The past 2 days have been pretty.. sedate. HAHA. Oh yes I bought my uniform! The blouse is so short and the skirt is so long ugh ):

Andrew just asked me to use FB instead of blogging. HAHA and I told him I use FB when I wanna say things that I want everyone to see. Whereas my blog is for well.. other things. I don't understand why people have to have FB and Twitter and whatnot. I personally think having one is enough. I wouldn't want people to know what I'm doing the whole day long!

2011-01-28T23:31:00.002+08:00

Ahh yes. Finally, the 2 painfully slow days are over. I hope to goodness next week will be more fun! And that everyone will be a little more enthusiastic. I always feel so bad especially when people try to hype us up and all they get in response is a dour silence.

Oh well. Hope for the best!

2011-01-27T22:04:00.002+08:00

The first day of school was dreadfully boring... Talks after talks after talks gosh. And we had to sit on the floor for hours on end. Wow.

Anyway. I am so.. drained of emotion. Or maybe I'm overwhelmed. Either way, I don't know. Why? Why do you have to do this to me all the time? You know. I'm much more overwrought than I seem to be, okay? Today was simply harrowing. Yeah I know, I just laughed it off. Would you like to know why? Because I simply hate calling attention to myself. Don't you know it? No, maybe you don't!

N doesn't tell me things for you to find out, you know? He tells me things because he trusts me. Tell me something. If you were my age, and you confided in your friend; you told him/her something, how'd you like it if your friend's parents read and found out what problems you're having? Wouldn't you feel horribly uncomfortable? Especially if that friend's parents demanded to know what exactly the problem is. Wouldn't you just HATE that feeling? Consider your friend. Don't you think your friend would feel oh so guilty that your 'secret' was found out? Don't you know today's generation is totally and vastly different from yours? Never mind. It's futile trying to explain things to you 'cuz you'll NEVER understand.

2011-01-26T23:20:00.000+08:00

I am so scared for tomorrow.

Kick your ass up, show me how you BURLESQUE!

2011-01-25T22:24:00.002+08:00

OMG BURLESQUE.IS.THE.BEST.MOVIE.EVER. S.E.R.I.O.U.S.L.Y. I AM NOT KIDDING. :D OMG I LOVE IT TO BITS!! I am absolutely getting it once it comes out on DVD. I LOVE IT!!! The singing and dancing are absolutely fabulous and at least the songs have nice melodies. And not some trashy songs invented just to move the story along HAHA.

Hahaha alright I shall stop gushing about the movie. Today's outing was really really really great! I really missed the clique so much!! ): So much has happened in the 2 years we were separated! Hahahahaha. I LOVE YOU GUYS :D Oh yes and we took neoprints today. It seems such an ancient thing we used to do in lower sec HAH but we had so much fun!! OMG we seriously have to go out more often please.

Yup right this post it too... excitable so I shall stop here before I start spouting nonsense!

2011-01-24T22:01:00.002+08:00

I can't wait for tomorrow! It's been ages since I last went out with the clique! :D And we're going to watch Burlesque, have a nice lunch and neoprint HAHA. Okay I'm positively teeming with excitement!

Yup right I should stop babbling senselessly (: I'm just so excited! Anyway. M has been asking me about a choice of shoes to buy for school and I told him he should fully exploit the freedom JC brings. HAHA. Seriously. Having a few pairs of shoes to play around with when it comes to school shoes makes everything so much easier especially when you bring in the event of rain. Posting results are on Wednesday I can't wait!

Okay okay. I'm so garbled. Am worried for N.

Wasted.

2011-01-22T19:08:00.003+08:00

Was looking at some FB pictures and it hit me so hard. Lost friendships are one of the worst things that could happen to you, especially if the person concerned used to be close to you. And particularly if you've known each other for a very long time. And the person distanced himself from you for no obvious reason. Sigh. I wish I knew what happened. We haven't talked for.. maybe a year or so? And me, not wishing to probe too much, I just keep to myself. What's the point of pouring out your woes to everyone when they're not even concerned in the matter? It's pointless. So.. I just. Bear with it as much as I can; put on a brave face whenever I think about it and it gets me down. I don't think it'll ever feel the same again, even if we get to be on talking terms again.

But.. I suppose I should just carry on with life. Although it sucks when you know that you lost a very close friend who used to consider you one as well.

Ahhh. What's the point of moping. There's nothing to be done. I just have to accept it; hope for a miracle.

Debussy's 'Clair de Lune' is so breathtakingly beautiful.. It can move you to tears. Unfortunately, my rendition of it has not reached such impossible standards. It's a piece that is really easy to read, but very hard to bring out its nuances and expressions. Wow. I wish I could play well enough for tears to spring to peoples' eyes. Maybe, hopefully, one day.

Alright. I shall stop being such a wet blanket.

2011-01-21T22:39:00.002+08:00

Gahhhhh. I AM SOOOOOO JEALOUS OF DOT ): ): ): ): ): SHE GOT AN IPHONE 4!!!! Walao. I am soooooo terribly envious okay. It's so beautiful! It's like, sleek and black and shiny OMG.... I can just DIE of envy right now okay. This is so unfair! ): My parents said she's 18 that's why. So maybe I stand a chance eh hehe.

Sigh. I need to get over it. Hopefully my turn will come.. (With special emphasis placed on the word 'hopefully'). Okay. Shut up about it.

Seriously. I give up on trying to upload pictures on FB. I desperately need FB Exporter for iPhoto!!! UGH. Uploading pictures is the most annoying thing EVER. Especially if you're an impatient person like me HAHA.

I can't stand people who can't drive properly. I mean. HULLO? If you can't drive, you so should not be on the road.

Alright. I should stop crapping.

2011-01-20T21:36:00.002+08:00

Ahh. Thank goodness I was able to get out of the house today! It has become unbearably boring having nothing to do. Reading for a whole day is seriously NOT fun at all. It tires you out horribly and it makes you feel disinterested for the rest of the day.. It makes you lethargic!

So. I did wake up at 8 30 today and boy did I feel a whole lot better! It felt so much more.. liberating, than to wake up at 9 or 10 plus. I really feel less tired today! Yay!

Anyway. I HATE it when people blatantly cut your queue, regardless of what you're queuing for. Seriously! They have no etiquette WHATSOEVER. Their skin, is as thick as an animal's hide, no kidding. They just wait for the opportune time and conveniently slot themselves into the (non-existent) queue. Goodness. If I had a sharper tongue I'd have given them a piece of my mind right there and then. I think it's pretty reasonable I let them go about their own way HUH.

Alright. I should stop complaining!

2011-01-19T21:57:00.002+08:00

Gah. Holidays are getting way too boring. I'm starting to wish that school would start now 'cuz bumming around at home is seriously no fun at all. You just feel horribly stagnant and lethargic. Seriously, I felt physically tired today. Maybe I've just been having too much sleep.. Okay. I shall start waking up earlier. No more late mornings for you Abigirl! 8.30am every morning for you, no exceptions!

Been feeling strange lately. A little down for no reason.. And well. Maybe I've been cooped up at home for too long! But then again I've been out pretty frequently although not for long periods. Wonder what's with me.

Hahahahahahaha. This is so hilarious. I was talking to B on msn and he told me he remembers how I dished out my meal utensils etiquette to him HAHAHAH. Goodness. I feel like such a matronly, bossy person now. Shudder. I hope I wasn't annoying then! Anyway. Talking to someone else about cold places is so great (: I hated having to bundle up so much although you'd still look nice. Really. You come in from the freezer and straight into an oven. And taking off your jacket and slinging it over one arm encumbers you so much. So the easiest thing to do is not to take off your jacket! But well. Comfort comes first! Oh yes. I totally hated wearing thermals YUCK. Oh but I suppose they do serve their purpose.. Without them I'd probably have frozen into an icicle so.. I should stop complaining (:

Junwei said I've grown more mature.. I hope so! He says I used to complain a lot in the past and I do so less now. So yay! HAHA.

I get to see Emmanuel tomorrow. Am so looking forward to it!!!

2011-01-18T21:39:00.002+08:00

Gosh. Can the internet get any slower. It's annoying the crap out of me.

Anyway. Met one of my mum's friends today and she told me something interesting. She told me I should go into early childhood.. Get a degree and I can start some kinda kindergarten or something along those lines. And I have to thank her! She piqued my interest HAHA. If not for her I'd really have no idea what interests me.

Ahhhhh. Kinda not in the mood now.

2011-01-16T16:22:00.002+08:00

Sigh. Today was kinda weird. I thought I could go for lunch without event, but apparently I couldn't. I got a call, got screamed at, and I hung up. I can't even go for lunch with church people eh? Well. I don't suppose I can dispute that anymore can I. I've kinda given up. I suppose you can tell that from the tone of this post. It sounds so desolate doesn't it.

Come on. School hasn't even started yet. Why can't you just let me enjoy my last 2 weeks of freedom? I really don't understand. Why did you have to call me and scold me? What did I do wrong? I thought you were over what happened last night, since you talked to me normally after I got off the computer. And all of a sudden I get a call from you, and you're scolding me about who knows what. Scolding me about what time I'll get back, about how this will be the last time I'm going for lunch with church people. CHURCH PEOPLE! Don't you like me socializing with them, saying how I have healthy relationships with them? I really don't know what's going on.

Screw it. Maybe I'll just stop trying so hard to please you.

GO AWAY.

2011-01-15T22:23:00.005+08:00

O.M.G. WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH MY PARENTS. WHY MUST YOU INTERFERE WITH EVERY SINGLE INCH OF MY LIFE. Don't you know that I have my own social life to live? That my group of friends are NOT yours? And that I have my own way of handling problems; that you don't have to interfere and make mine and my friends' lives difficult as well? CAN'T YOU GET THAT?! Can't you see that I've realized that my strength is my weakness (as how you term it), and that I haven't been 'sucked' into anything (again, like how you've termed it)?? What must I do to show you?

Seriously. You set ridiculous limits and constraints on me, and you expect me to follow them without a single complaint. I have, haven't I? As far as it was possible, that is. Granted, you let me exceed my daily quota of texts the day I got my results and the few days after. After that? Oh, well, your usual over-inquisitive self came back! Oh wow! I'm delighted and overjoyed! So you want me to send a maximum of 20 texts a day right?? So obviously if I can't afford to send anymore texts I have to talk to the person online right? What's wrong with that? You don't allow me to talk on the phone for too long. The only people I can talk to when school starts are my school friends. Are you trying to tell me that I can't keep in touch with my other friends, regardless of whether they're from primary or secondary school? Just because you don't know N that well doesn't mean that he's a slippery character you know. Why must you know everyone of my friends inside out? IT'S NONE OF YOUR FREAKIN' BUSINESS. So you can jolly well keep out of it. You don't trust my judgement do you? Well, deal with it.

Oh. So now I can't catch up with my best friend from primary school? Is that what you're trying to tell me? I can't even lend a listening ear to his problems? Wouldn't you do the same for your own friend? Oh, maybe you wouldn't! Wouldn't that make you a nice sadist! What are N's problems to you? They don't play a part in your life at all. And I am NOT trying to make them a part of mine. I'm just trying to make my friend feel a little better, what's wrong with that? I'm not going to get together with him just because he confides in me you know! I've learnt from my previous stupid blunders. But then again, if I told you that, you wouldn't believe me! So why should I bother telling you that right. And just when I was feeling a little happier about the way things were going at home now. Thanks for spoiling it for me. Just for your information, you managed to ruin my Thursday night too. THANKS A LOT. You almost made me cry in the car okay. It's so unfair.

And now I can't talk to my juniors too! Oh wow, how awesome that is! Thank you so much for putting a stop to my interaction with my juniors. You don't let me go back to school to encourage them for their SYF auditions, you disallow me from talking to them. Seriously, what else will you not disallow me from doing?! You know one day, maybe I'll just decide that I've had enough from y'all. Who knows what I might do then. Good luck to you.

FML.

2011-01-12T18:56:00.002+08:00

Hello world (:

I wonder if it's just me having bad dreams or whether it's real, but it seems like for the past 2 nights I've been waking up with bad headaches and they disappear the next morning. Kinda freaky, if you ask me. So I've been feeling pretty tired the past 2 days.. Oh well.

Eww disgusting stench emanating from my neighbour downstairs -.- Annoying ttm. It's horribly nauseating and it makes my head throb omg.

MJ's open house today was pretty fun (: Got to see people I haven't seen in a long long long time HAHA. But I seriously can't decide. TJ's more established but MJ's more fun, although their retain rate is crazy. Sigh. Give it to God (: Jeremiah 29:11 is such an inspirational verse!

PRAISE THE LORD!

2011-01-11T23:10:00.002+08:00

I got 10 for my L1R5 I AM SO HAPPY :D

Now I've gotta decide between TJ and MJ.. Ahh.

2011-01-09T23:12:00.002+08:00

I spent the night with MEP friends; it was so great (: Andrew and Russell came back; Andrew's crazy and so's his hair haha. Russell's still the same and that's awesome.

Not much in the mood. K is still talking to me real coldly and it hurts. Maybe it's just me reading too much into things. Or maybe it's not; maybe he's harbouring something against me. I don't know.

2011-01-08T12:40:00.002+08:00

O Level results are on Monday help! ): I'm so stupid. Right now I'm giving advice I myself should have heeded when I was studying, to my juniors. How dumb is that. I suppose that's why I'm feeling so horribly scared and nervous about my results.

Ahh. Never mind there's nothing to be done about it. Everyone around me keeps telling me I'll do fine and there's nothing to worry about. I wonder what makes them so positive I'll do okay. Sometimes it irks me how 'carefree' they seem to be. But then again it's just them trying to comfort me and get rid of my stupid tension and worry.

Anyway. I've restarted piano and I'm going to do my LTCL this June, which entails a hell lot of practising for me. It's kinda hard for me to discipline myself to practise after so long. I haven't touched the piano since the end of September, although I did play a few times to ease my boredom occasionally. And I'm going to audition this October for one of the US colleges to do music.. I'll only get to do it if I pass. And even then I'll only go the following August or October so. I don't know if I can even be ready by then :/ I don't even think I'm prepared to travel anywhere by myself even if the country is an English speaking country. I'm scared; this year brings so many changes and so many new things.

K is ignoring me. K didn't seem happy to talk to me even via text and he's ignoring me today. Sigh. I don't know what happened.

Goodbye.

2011-01-02T16:41:00.002+08:00

It has been a really long time since I've blogged, no? Okay maybe not, 'cuz I forgot I blogged about the idiot who hacked my hotmail account.

Munich was really really great I'd totally go back there if I could! Kay maybe not Munich but Germany (: And I wanna go back to Salzburg too!! I didn't get to go for anything there like the Sound of Music tour ): 'Cuz we took much much longer than expected/estimated to get there. Stupid snow confused my dad and made all of us annoyed. So in the end we only had a few hours of daylight left sobsob. It was really cold but I was so happy because it was the first time I actually saw it snowing, instead of just seeing snow on the ground whoo! Too bad we didn't go skiing or tobogganing or any of the likes of such things.

Dinner later bye!

2010-12-21T22:19:00.003+08:00

WHAT THE HECK. Someone who obviously has nothing better to do hacked my hotmail account and sent a gross email to like, almost everyone on my contact list. I cannot believe the standards people can stoop to just because they might hold a grudge against me or something. Hullo? Why don't you go vent it out on yourself or something HAHA. Maybe if I put myself down by saying that I AM NOT WORTH YOUR TIME you'd be happy eh? Okay, so here goes. I AM SOOOOO NOT WORTH YOUR TIME SO YOU CAN JOLLY WELL GO SPEND IT ELSEWHERE. And annoy others too. Not me.

Goodbye.

2010-12-07T23:11:00.002+08:00

FB is annoying the crap outta me. The stupid thing doesn't respond when you click once, you've gotta like, spam click before the next page starts loading. Annoying much.

GERMANY IN 2 DAYS' TIME OMG I CANNOT WAIT :D :D :D :D And I can't wait to wear my beautiful Zara Basics coat hehe :]

It's been pretty fun bumming around at home doing pretty much nothing HARHAR. Most of the time I end up watching movies in the afternoon to while away the time.. But it's still fun! I'm just never gonna watch Silence of the Lambs EVER again :/ As well as The Black Dahlia. Those 2 are shows that I will NEVER watch again. Unless my some stroke of miraculous luck I manage to pluck up my courage to watch them again. Maybe it'll have to be with someone else so that I won't be so awfully freaked out heh. Anthony Hopkins is scary. But I suppose that's what makes him so famous, so I shan't grudge that against him.

Talked about Revelations just now.. Sigh. I'm kinda scared. Which isn't exactly the best thing to be feeling. Oh well.

Don't be depressed Abigail. Look on the bright side (: Life's short, live it to the fullest (:

2010-12-06T22:48:00.002+08:00

Busy busy! :D

Had Ichiban Boshi for lunch today and Waraku for dinner HAHA. I shan't eat Japanese food for a while now, I think. Kinda sick of it.. For now, at least. I usually love Japanese food. I LOVE CHURCHIES TTM! :D I feel so bloated now.. After eating a super duper filling meal at Waraku we went for Starbucks OMG. Serene paid for dinner YAY THANK YOU SERENE! :D

Hmm. I shall not hinder my FB picture uploads so goodbye!

2010-12-05T21:44:00.002+08:00

Silence of the Lambs is the scariest movie ever.. Seriously. It isn't a gore movie but it's still disgustingly bloody and there's like, skinning and cannibalism ): It's freaky. Like, psycho mad freaky. I couldn't sleep last night! I woke up twice and so I'm like, super tired today. Thankfully I didn't wake up scared but each time I woke up I thought of the movie. Which goes to show that I'd probably been thinking/dreaming of it in my subconscious HAH. The show is so good that I don't ever wanna watch it again!

Anywayz. I WANNA LEAVE FOR GERMANY LIKE, NOW NOW NOW! :D It's freezing cold there now though, like -8 degrees or something. But it'll be cool! And I'll finally like, see it snowing instead of just seeing snow on the ground ._.

Ahah. Bye! :D

2010-12-02T21:43:00.002+08:00

Hai (:

Woke up pretty late today so by the time I had my breakfast it was time to go harhar. And I can't believe how long the stupid 12 took to come grr. So many other buses came repeatedly and the darn bus didn't come until like, maybe, a good 20 minutes after I arrived at the bus stop. Awesome no? Ugh.

So. The afternoon was pretty eventful! We were supposed to help with camp prep but poor Debbie had to stay behind to complete the backlog ): Sorry Debbie! Hehe now for the drama.. I was chasing Dillo when he banged into a glass cabinet and the whole thing shattered, like, right there and then OMG -.- And Dillo was like, holding his head and he was wincing so bad I thought I was going to see blood luh. Thank God he's fine now! :D Ya and, I was holding the big piece of glass which was supposedly smooth.. And I was removing my hand when I scratched myself on the glass. It was damn gross okay! I could totally feel the glass cutting into my hand YUCK YUCK YUCK!

There's cell tomorrow! :D And Aston's before that hehehe :P

I LOVE MALACCA MISSION TRIP PEOPLE TTM PLEASE ♥♥♥♥♥♥

2010-12-01T21:47:00.002+08:00

Went out with my aunt and grandma today :D Walked and walked and walked! We kept walking back and forth between Ngee Ann City and Wisma LOL. I got a necklace from Laura Ashley yay!

Going to church tomorrow to help with KFC camp prep.. Hope it'll be fun! And I can't wait for Sunday's outing whoooo! :D May be watching Narnia and neoprinting. :D

2010-11-30T21:43:00.001+08:00

YAY pictures are getting uploaded (: And people are helping me tag so I can just occupy myself with the tedious job of uploading pictures on FB which is constantly lagging LOL.

Ah. Going out tomorrow and Thursday.. And maybe Sunday too! I hope I can recover soon though, otherwise I'll suffer in Germany boohoo. Plus if I don't get well soon enough my mum might not allow me to go out with my darling friends from the mission trip ):

I MISS YOU GUYS!!!!

2010-11-28T18:51:00.002+08:00

Hello people! I was so scared about sharing today.. But I suppose it went okay! Andrea said she could tell I was real nervous though but oh well, it's over and most people said it was good, so that's that. I hope whatever I said impacted others, especially the part about having faith during difficult situations!

Anyway. I'm kinda pissed/annoyed/irritated now. Okay no, it's more than that. FRIGGIN' PISSED. And I thought all that SHIT was over. Apparently it isn't. You LIED to me. Immediately after my Os I asked if I could have 1 hour on the computer, you said wait, use for half an hour for a while more and we see, maybe we will increase. Did you? NO! But for the past few days, you've been giving me the impression that you had already increased my pathetic computer curfew to 1 hour. Why? Because you've been oh-so-willingly increasing my time for me! Oh, whoop de doo, how delightful! And now, you throw this in my face. Just when I was thinking that things were going to go smoothly at home, like FINALLY. THANKS A LOT MAN, SERIOUSLY. Do you know that one of my MEP friends said he admired me for always being able to be so bubbly while facing such things at home? You don't know nothing about that.

Sigh. What's happening. This sucks.

2010-11-27T22:58:00.002+08:00

I spent the day at home ): It was rather boring considering the amount of fun I had in Malacca with everyone else.. It was awfully sedate at home today! And I woke up so late cansxzx ): Like, at 10. I feel so piggy now..

I feel slightly sick DAMN ): My nose has been sniffy the whole day, and my throat is slightly affected ): Sigh. I hope I don't get too sick.

IT'S SONIA'S BIRTHDAY TOMORROW! :D I wonder if we're still going out since Andrea didn't really get back to me. Never mind we shall wait and see! :D Can't wait for tomorrow! I'm going to share my testimony! :D

Oh and Mark's birthday celebration was awesome :D He said we made his day YAY! And who planned it uh? I know right, thank you thank you :D

2010-11-26T11:08:00.002+08:00

THE MISSION TRIP WAS SO FUN :D :D :D :D

I LOVE ALL YOU GUYS WHO WENT! :D Especially those who were closer to us: Janell, Pamela and Mark :D Oh and HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARK! :D

Mission trip was awesome! Getting to work with the little kids was so much fun! And it was challenging too 'cuz not all of them could speak English fluently and so we had to speak Chinese to them haha! Hilarious much :D And my group won yo! On the last day which was my birthday :D I love my group on the last day they were so adorable and they like me! :D And Marissa, of course. The Malaccans were real nice too (: I didn't expect such strong bonds of friendship to be formed in such a short span of 4 days.. It's nice to think of :]

It's a little long to post about the whole trip but I thank God for allowing me to go on this trip and meet new people (: And have new friends as well. I love you guys! :D We have to keep in touch! :D Thanks for an awesome time in Malacca (: ♥♥♥♥

2010-11-20T14:22:00.002+08:00

PROM WAS A BLAST :D

People looked so different it was so nice (: Lots of people wore toga style dresses I nearly had a dress clash BUT thankfully her dress was vastly different from mine in the front phew! I'm so going to miss 4H ): I missed the class photo! Sigh. Oh and NOVIA WAS PROM QUEEN! Isn't that some AWESOME SHIZZ :D

I CAN'T WAIT FOR MY MISSION TRIP WHOO! :D We're gonna have so much fun and I hope the little kids will be cute hehe so I won't be annoyed.. Well. I have to learn to be more patient! No rolling of eyes Abigail Sim (:

I'm almost done packing.. And I didn't even take an hour to do that! Congratulations, Abigail (:

I hope Dot's okay! :]

2010-11-18T15:36:00.002+08:00

Ah. (: Woke up quite late today ah hah I feel so lazy! Played with my mum's friend's pets OMG they are so adorable!

I'M LEAVING THE HOUSE SOON YAY YAY YAY! :D Hahaha okay I'm crazy. I'm so going to miss Dot ): ):

I'm clearing my FB profile (: You will see the number of pictures I have decrease HAH.

Bye! (:

Let my hair down.

2010-11-17T22:31:00.003+08:00

I'm happy (:

Harry Potter with churchies tomorrow! Can't wait can't wait! And I painted my nails dark purple and most people think it's black.. Never mind I think it's elegant so that's that! Emmanuel got confused between the colour of mine and his nails HAH. That's so adorable.

Somehow I don't really feel like blogging anymore hah. But I think I should continue (: It'll just be a no frills blog; no links, no tagboard so no annoying people can post annoying things.

I'll be spending my birthday with churchies hahaa YAY I love you guys to bits! :D But Dot's going to be away on my birthday boohoo ): Going to miss you Dot!

Ah. Goodbye!

2010-11-16T18:19:00.002+08:00

OMG AT LAST! Os ARE OVER! :D I AM OVERJOYED MUCH! :D

The past few days have been blissful (: I've finally been able to hang out with churchies (RIGHT Jiawei) and it has been awesome. 76th anniversary celebration was lots of fun too! So anyway, to cut the long story short, I'm slacking at home and not at choir farewell party 'cuz I'm too tired. And my whole day was spend in my primary school and Parkway so I shall hide at home! I can't wait for the mission from 21st to 25th November we're gonna have so much fun! (:

Yup alright bye. (:

2010-08-13T22:11:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling better today (: Although I'm still awfully tired.. I slept at 1 plus last night photocopying my stupid scores for O level practical exam on the 1st of October -.- Seriously man, what a huge waste of time!!! Argh. I found out today that my Performing Major and Higher Music venues are different. What does that mean? I HAVE TO MAKE 2 MORE COPIES OF SCORES BY THE END OF THIS WEEK. Gosh. Get a load of this crap.

At least I got to come home early today though; less stressful that way (: Analysed a piece of prose just now; managed to write an essay of reasonable length but I don't know if I can write as long in the actual exam ):

I'm so tired now.. Even picking up a pen to write seems like such a hard thing to do. Sigh. I wish Sec4 life would quickly be over. What a chore.

Bye (: I'm no longer unhappy, just tired (:

Awful.

2010-08-12T21:27:00.002+08:00

Today, was a totally, awful, horrendous, I-don't-ever-wanna-experience-it-again kinda day.

I got stuck in a jam on the way to school and reached at 7 15. Rushed to put my bag down in class and return my choir gown. Went back downstairs to class and sat down and before I knew it it was time to go for assembly. FANTASTIC. Chinese was a real blast; I was trying to do A Math papers and I ended up consulting Q for every single question. Goodness. English was okay.. Fell asleep during Math periods and Physics was so so so so boring OMG. A Math test was killer, okay. I swear.

Simply put, today SUCKED.

Let's elaborate, shall we? Yes. I woke up in the middle of the night coughing. And I felt cold. But I managed to fall asleep again, thankfully. Woke up for school and of course, got caught in a jam. Whatever.

Actually the worst part of my day started after school (ironically). A Math test totally demoralized me and I still had to come home for another hour and a half of Math tuition. Awesome, no? My whole arm aches like mad now. My back was having sharp pains shooting down its length 'cuz my whole back aches so badly.

After tuition, I thought I could relax a little and freshen up. But NO! My 'relaxation' time was disrupted. Nagging, again. Hey, look. You wanna talk extremes? I can be extreme too, you know. You want me to delete friends from FB? How 'bout I delete you? Hmm? You wouldn't know a thing, I assure you. Who are you to dictate my friends? It's my social circle, my group of friends, for your information. The reason why I'd perk up when you mentioned not being able to go out after Os? Because it simply does NOT make sense. I think you've denied me my freedom long enough, it's time I got it back. One drawback of not giving me my handphone: I can go wherever I want, whenever I want, if I chose to. So hope and pray fervently that I won't snap one day and decide to do that. 'Cuz I'd like to hazard a guess that you'd regret it.

Oh, what the heck. What does it matter. I can't do anything, right? Ugh.

Bye.

2010-08-08T20:34:00.002+08:00

Dot went to Cambridge today boohoo ): And I found out that her friend's brother is in my batch and hahaha he doesn't even know me!!! So LOL! RJC has a lot of interesting people (: Hahaha.

Hmm. I felt a little weird today.. Maybe I'm still suffering the aftereffects of yesterday's migraine haha! I kept yawning just now; I totally hate that!

Ah well. Disjointed post (: Hahha :D Maybe I'm too hyper hehe :P

Bye! :D

Hey (: I love you :D :D :D

2010-08-07T22:36:00.002+08:00

Hello (: It's been a tough week but hey, I'm happy :D

Anywayz. MEP COURSEWORK IS OVER WHOOOOOO! :D OMG I AM OVERJOYED :D There's no need to sit in front of the stupid computer with the internet unplugged (hehe) and rack my brains for a feasible melody LOLLL ._.

Friday's National Day celebration was only so-so.. Heh. It was so hot and we had to sit on the floor! ): Oh man. We were being enthu for a while but I suppose it eventually died down 'cuz there were annoying people on the 2nd floor who thought they were real cool and I think the floor got too uncomfortable for all of us so.. (: Hahaha!

This is stupid. I was falling asleep while studying just now so I went to take a nap. And hey, guess what? I woke up with a migraine! Oh, how awesome! I popped 2 Panadol and miserably nursed it hehe. I went back to sleep and I ate a little bit for dinner (: But YAY my headache's gone now! Maybe 'cuz I had a nice phone call and dinner that took my mind off it (:

Dot's going to Cambridge tomorrow ):

My darling (: I love you (: Thank you for being so sweet to me (: I love you! :D

2010-08-04T16:12:00.000+08:00

I HATE MEP COURSEWORK ): Thank goodness it's the last week today haha :]

Assembly today was so F.A.I.L. LOL. Serious. The girl totally overdid it ._. Ugh. Anywayz. Lunch was great!! :D Hahahahah :D

Bye (: I won't be blogging for the next few days until the weekend 'cuz apparently I've been banned -.- Sigh.

Thanks for today (: Love you (:

Thanks for today (: Love you!

2010-08-02T22:41:00.002+08:00

Hallo (: Today was an.. eye-opener, I would say. Haha. I found out things about myself I wouldn't have even known/thought of if I hadn't been told haha :] Interesting..

And and! I was awake during tuition today so my tutor said I was having a 'smart day' yay! :D Hahaha. So I felt real productive hahahaha :D The only thing I didn't like about today was the Physics Practical 'cuz it was so pointless and lame hehe :] Making a ruler horizontal, putting a pin through a cork etc. How lame LOL.

Ah well. I'm sick and I feel horrible now ): Bye.

2010-08-01T21:31:00.002+08:00

Friday was okay, I guess. Finished school early and came home and slept before going for cell (: I've been pretty well rested this weekend, I should say. Thank God (: But it's back to the fray tomorrow. Sigh..

I have to take the stupid E Math Mock Test Paper 2 out of school again ARGH. And why? Because something cropped up and English and Math supplementary days were swapped. Oohh, how nice. MEP Coursework is finally going to be over, but I don't think my composition's gonna be spectacular or anything. No inspiration hit, I only had an intuition that I should compose in D minor but other than that it's pretty normal.

Anyway.. It sucks to lose a friend you've known for a very long time, it really does. Well. I guess I shouldn't say I've exactly 'lost' a friend, but it's close to that 'cuz he and I don't even talk anymore. Childhood friends.. Oh well. I guess there's nothing I can do about it eh.

Bye.

Jaded.

2010-07-29T21:03:00.003+08:00

Hmm. Nothing much happened today, I guess. Pretty mundane; the emotions I've been feeling for the past few days are nothing new either, so ya. 'Nothing new' seems to be pretty much in my vocabulary nowadays. LOL.

Ah, to hell with it.

Bye.

The Greatness of our God.

2010-07-28T21:19:00.002+08:00

Hello (:

The week has been pretty boring and uneventful.. Which, I suppose, would mean that things are getting better? Or maybe not! Who knows. I think things have been pretty quiet on the surface, but things are boiling inside me. Just yesterday I had a row with my mum about whether/when I could use the computer, which is so pathetic. Well, let's try to be more optimistic and try to be in their shoes huh. Suppose it's the consequences of my actions? The 'fruit' of my 'labour', to be sarcastic.

We got our Prelim schedule yesterday. Oh, horror! And hey, guess what! I screwed up my latest E Math Mock Exam! Whoo! How encouraging. Ugh. Maybe I'm burning out. But then again, I have no right to be burnt out 'cuz I haven't even been studying properly! Oh, whoop de doo. Ugh.

What's happened? I've become so bitter. Stuff happened over lunch today, but oh well. It's all okay now so no point moping around sulking about it. I bit my lip over lunch today. Maybe it'll become an ulcer. Who knows? Grr. HAHA.

Sigh.. I should really try to stop being so gloomy and annoyingly fluctuating. It even annoys me; imagine how it would irritate others HAH.

But at least I have someone to turn to, someone who's always there for me no matter what. My G-O-D, is B-I-G! Hahahahaha :] Look at the title of my blog post (: Meaningful? Yes, definitely. Let me end with this chorus. (:

You are my freedom,

Jesus you're the reason,

I'm kneeling again at your throne.

Where would I be, without you,

here in my life, here in my life.

Yup. I believe this chorus speaks for itself :]

Bye.

2010-07-27T21:28:00.002+08:00

Why??

Sigh. I've been really tired lately.. I slept so much yesterday and I'm still so tired! Ugh what's with me. Was falling asleep during tuition just now ._. How annoying and frustrating.

Anyway. Mr Foo was telling us about how lucky and fortunate his 2 younger brothers are.. -sighs wistfully- I wish I could live like that too! ): Oh well. Guess I ain't cut out for such things; I'm not bold enough. I wish I could be like his 3rd brother who can afford to sit back and shake his legs and be an armchair director.. Oh well (: Lucky people, I guess. While people like me have to slog our asses off just to get somewhere.

Alright stop being so pessimistic. CSI, HERE I COME! :D

2010-07-22T21:56:00.002+08:00

STUPID STUPID STUPID. I LOST ALL MY TEMPLATE INFO WHEN I CHANGED MY BLOGSKIN UGH.

Anyway. Talk about trust. So just because there's a rationale behind your 'reasoning' you get to change whatever you say as and when you want to and I can't? What if I tell you I can see the rationale behind my actions too? Would you believe/accept it? NO!

Oh whatever. I'm tired. Bye.

2010-07-20T22:10:00.002+08:00

I realize something. I've been crying a lot lately.. LOL.

Anywayz. I hate being so tired, it's really annoying. Like, SERIOUSLY. ANNOYING. TO. THE. MAX.

Lots of things happening now, one of which is particularly delightful (:

Bye. (:

2010-07-19T23:07:00.002+08:00

Hmm. Last night was.. Different (:

I think I've become vulnerable and unstable hah. Been sleeping at my usual time but feeling a lot more tired than I normally would've felt.. Weird?

Nigel asked me to listen to 'I Never Told You'. It's so nice; it has such meaningful lyrics.. The music video's incredibly touching too. Sigh.. Oh dear. I feel perilously close to tears now :]

Bye.

2010-07-18T21:39:00.002+08:00

Hmm. I cheered up a little last night. Went for dinner at the SAF Yacht Club; it was nice and breezy and we were sitting right above the water haha :] Pleasant evening, I would say.

Oh well. Pessimism has overcome me once again. Goodbye, world.

2010-07-17T23:10:00.003+08:00

The day didn't start off very well for me.. ): I suppose it was a combination of fatigue and me feeling cranky..? Yeah. Having lessons didn't help either. Plus I was late for Chemistry 'cuz of a stupid flood near Eunos which caused me to take like, 15 minutes or something to get past 3 traffic lights when it should only have taken 5 to 7 minutes -.- Ugh.

Anywayz. I have to go so I'll end here. Bye (: Feeling a little down-ish again now, for some reason. Sigh. I hate it when my mood fluctuates. Makes me seem like some mood swinging lunatic..

2010-07-16T23:25:00.002+08:00

Tired, tired, tired ):

Anyhoo. Today was an okay day, not fantastic but not disastrous either :] Except that my Chinese teacher went wacky today heh. Lunched at the hawker centre near Parkway with my mum and bought Pass with Distinction for both A and E Math. Sigh.. No life ttm -.-

LESSONS TOMORROW OMG NOOOOO ): HELP.

2010-07-15T22:24:00.002+08:00

I don't think I've ever felt as tired as I've felt in a day for so long.. Sigh. I am seriously sleep deprived :/

Anyway I didn't blog about yesterday's Speech Day performance (: It went much better than expected, considering the fact that we didn't even manage to run through the songs even once :/ It was so scary!!!

Alright short post today :D

Bye!

2010-07-14T23:11:00.002+08:00

Anger.

So you think you're doing this 'for my happiness'? Oh, what poppycock. You think I believe that? Do you seriously think that by doing this to me, you're making me happy?? Hell, no. You're delusional if you think that way. Depriving me of my basic rights? Yes, I know that sounds cliche but that is exactly what you are doing. Oppressing me? Yes, definitely! Stopping me from being who I am? Oh, confirm, plus chop plus counter sign plus guarantee! I knew it, I just knew, that something was bound to go wrong. That feeling I had, before I left school. That feeling of lethargy and the knowledge that something's going to go wrong, but you don't know what it is and you can't stop it either. Basically, I DIDN'T FEEL LIKE GOING HOME. Don't you think that's um, pretty sad? Your own daughter doesn't feel like going home? Know why? THE HOUSE IS LIKE A PRISON. PERIOD.

Don't blame me if I say y'all are idiots or anything. You say I brought all this shit upon myself right? Well, SAME GOES TO YOU, MY FRIENDS. Tell me to think about what y'all said right? Do some self-reflection, too. Think, and try to discern if this is the right way to be doing things that are supposedly for my own good, 'cuz right now, it's highly detrimental to me. And like it or not, it's just making things worse. Too bad. GET A LIFE.

Never mind. Whatever. Back to the fray tomorrow.

2010-07-12T23:07:00.002+08:00

Helloz (: Reached school at about 6 45 today since I had to be at the assembly plaza by 6 50 for prize presentation.. Hehe turns out I forgot to bring my prize back, hope it's still under my table!

Anyway. I HATE FB'S PHOTOS UPLOADER!!! ): ): It's so annoying. And lately I can't even go to the 'select pictures' mode, it's like, simple uploader -.- HELP. A few days ago I wanted to upload and I selected only about 5 pictures and hey, guess what? THE STUPID BAR DIDN'T EVEN MOVE. I gave up (: So I haven't had the chance to upload even a single photo from last week's outing with Crossover to the Barrage. Lame, or lame?

Hmm, let's see. Today was pretty mundane, I guess? Didn't fall asleep at all until I had Lit.. I wanna continue watching 'Atonement'!!!! Sigh. I wanna see what the annoying, bratty sister does to get the poor um, worker (?) into trouble. STUPID GIRL.

I bought new Converse school shoes heh (: Irrelevant, but I felt like mentioning it (:

Bye!

2010-07-11T22:09:00.002+08:00

And I thought today would all be smooth sailing. Ugh, FAT HOPE. I still felt horribly tired today. Napped just now so I don't feel so tired but how 'bout I feel horrible inside now. Was cranky after I woke up but I cheered up a little over dinner.. But now. Well. What can I say.

My whole afternoon was screwed up. Because of 1 pathetic incident. I suppose my scathing sarcasm did nothing to soften their resolve, because underneath all that sarcasm was a whole lot of hurt. I seriously do not know what I was feeling just now. The cheek of you, to tell me you know how it feels, that you know it's awful. Would you like to live a day in my position? That would only be a fraction of what I've been going through for goodness knows how long.

Never mind. I'll just stop crapping right now before it gets out of hand huh.

2010-07-10T16:34:00.002+08:00

Hmm. I feel a little better todayyy :D Although I'm still tired haha. Had E Math from 10 to 12 today.. I felt unproductive again, as usual ): Sigh. Went home myself today. 1 plus point (: It's such a hot day ._.

Anyway. It's been a strange week for me.. Sigh. Lots and lots and lots of ups and downs, you could say. I don't want to elaborate for fear that I'll start to type nonsense. Plus my studies are practically going down the drain. Oh, what the heck.

Off to a relative's wedding dinner now. Gonna change, at least I get to dress up (: Another plus point. Ah well (: I'm kinda hovering between up and down now. I guess that's better than being nearer to the downside. Bye (:

2010-07-09T23:01:00.002+08:00

I'm confused.. Troubled.

I guess a large contributing factor is that I'm so tired everyday that I can't even get in the time to study anything substantial. That's affecting me like, a lot. Stupid Os are like 3 freakin' months away and Prelims are even nearer goodness. Screwed up much.. I've been sleeping at like, 1 every night. How annoying. And it makes me fall asleep in school. When I come back, it gets worse. Plus, I don't have the time to nap anymore, so I just have to get through the day by sheer will.

Sigh. Today's tuition was kinda unproductive.. ): I was only awake for the first half of it? Subsequently, I was falling asleep like no one's business and no, it isn't funny. I couldn't even understand what my tutor was saying and OMG it's organic freakin' chemistry!! Oh well. What can I do.

I give up.

2010-07-08T23:04:00.002+08:00

GERMANY LOST!!! ): ): ): ): STUPID SPAIN. They freakin' scored in the last 20 minutes of the game!!! ARGH. Never mind. Why cry over spilt milk right? :]

Let's blog about nicer things :D ORAL WAS GOOD TODAY YAY! :D :D :D :D :D I mean like. At least the teacher(s) didn't have to ask me if I had anything else to add 'cuz that would mean that I hadn't said enough :] And I managed to make them laugh at the end of my exam, PRO OR NOT :D I seriously need to um, sleep earlier.. But that's virtually impossible uh, unfortunately. Every night I fall asleep after dinner which is the time where I'm supposed to be able to accomplish the most stuff, and by the time I 'wake up' it's too late, like 11 plus ._. Ah well. Tristan says I'm a machine ): I guess I'm forced to be one!

YAY I can sing for Speech Day YAY :D 2 awesome songs yo! :D Hahaha. My last performance with TK choir.. Oh wait! If there's a concert I'm so gonna participate mansxzx :D Sumpa! :D

I think someone's tampering with my FB ._. It keeps logging out for no reason UGH. Annoying much.

Alright. I'm done blabbering :D More work for me sigh ): Bye!

2010-07-07T22:23:00.002+08:00

I wanted to watch the Germany vs Spain match but my mum doesn't allow!!!! ): ): ): ARGH DAMMIT! ): I HOPE GERMANY WINS!!! :D

Today was the sian-est MEP session ever ): Sigh.. I don't know.

Hahaha I don't feel like blogging anymore :D I'm happy :D

I'm damn scared for oral tomorrow ): Oh well. Hope I don't screw up hehe :]

Bye! :D

2010-07-06T23:10:00.002+08:00

Hello peoplezz :D

Today was a horrible day ): I felt so horribly, awfully tired ugh ): And my left eye has an awesome triple eyelid yo! LOL. Alright I'm not making sense..

Argh. I'm so annoyed. My parents won't stop nagging at me -.- Whatever.

Bye. Probably gonna sleep relatively late tonight, who cares. MEP tomorrow ah screw it ): I'm in a bad mood now -.- Bye.

2010-07-05T22:10:00.002+08:00

Today was my last outing with Mel ): She's going to Perth to study oh man ): I can't send her off on Wednesday ):

Anyway I wanna say something. I don't quite appreciate Billy Bombers' service ._. They're so not efficient.. Know why? We had to ask for ice water 3 times before they actually brought it to us, lame or lame?? And my grilled chicken wasn't all that great; it was so hard. Argh. I kinda regret going there.. ): And they made me broke! ):

Knight and Day is an awesome movieee :D I strongly encourage you guys to go catch it hehe :] I don't know what people have against the movie and against Cameron Diaz ): Never mind! Shan't dwell on things we can't change eh?? :D

I'm awfully tired ): Was falling asleep during tuition just now sigh.. How frustrating.

I LOVE YOU, MEL'S CELL! :D :D :D :D :D You guys are the best fun ever!!! :D

Bye (: I'm super tired.. ): I'm scared for my stupid MT Oral on Thursday darn it -.-

2010-07-04T23:38:00.003+08:00

Hi (: It's been a trying couple of days for me but I guess I got through them (:

I shan't post a long one.. I'm kinda tired; it's been harrowing :] So bye, people (: Goodnight.

2010-06-21T13:48:00.002+08:00

Ah hello (: It's been such a longggg time since I've posted, agreed?

I'm having MEP now hahahah :D And I'm obviously not doing my work, obviously not doing what I'm supposed to do :P

Anywayzz. Holidays have been such a drag.. ): And I think I'm waaayyyy behind in my work boohoo ): I haven't even effectively finished studying one subject and normally by the end of June or maybe nearer to Prelims I'm supposed to have finished studying everything at least once through. Oh goodness I'm dead ):

Mr Foo's revision schedule was pretty effective though! I've managed to keep to it and my tutor told me just now that if I continue like that I'd get an A.. Hopefully uh! :D I've just gotta keep practising questions, I guess. But that was only for A Math ): I HATE E MATH, who agrees with me? :D

I have been disallowed from going to this week's choir practices although it's compulsory for all choir members including Sec4s who went for the Italy trip. Know why? Yeah, I'm sure you all do ._. I feel like ranting and raving but unfortunately I don't have enough time. Or maybe I just don't want to 'cuz it'll take too long.. Hahaha okay my last sentence's meaning was actually the same as the previous one, lame much -.- Disoriented thoughts uh ._. I'm so tired :P I slept at 1 plus last night I'm sorry! I couldn't sleep :/ But I was just awake, I wasn't troubled :D I LOVE YOU :D

I miss singing ): ): Oh well. And I don't feel like joining VJ's choir 'cuz I heard there are lots of politics :/ But I want to continue singing!!! Hahah dilemma much.

I brought Baby's present along.. But I don't think there's much chance of me being able to write anymore ): I did manage to get one entry in today though, so yay me!! :D

Okay I shall stop my pointless, drunken ramblings HAH :D And I'll update again goodness knows when (: Bye peoplezz :D

I kinda want school to start again but at the same time I'm scared for school to start again 'cuz it means that Prelims and Os are getting nearer ): It's so scary luh SHIT ): Never mind, I'll survive. :]

Byezz :D

Baby, I love you :D You are the best, all I ever wanted :D I love you so much! :D

2010-06-06T17:22:00.005+08:00

HALLO :D

Today was okay :D Was a little worried during church but hey, everything's okay now so YAY! :D

Anywayzz. To commence my post about Friday's shopping (: I was pretty pissed off with Zara's staff.. They're basically understaffed. There were like, 2 levels of women's clothes and so we were at the 2nd level. I saw a pair of black leggings that I liked so I took it to try, and I found out that the outer 'coat' was kinda spoilt 'cuz they pegged it when they hung it. So I asked one of the staff to get another piece for me, S size. And hey, I waited for like 10 minutes and no one came back! So I went to ask another of the staff what happened to my leggings and she went, "Oh, no more size already!" Then I was like -.-, WHUT. I mean. If there wasn't any more size, inform me luh, gosh.

And a hilarious point :D Dot and I could very nearly have stolen from Zara that day LOLLLL :D We were waiting for our mum to try something and we were bored, so we went upstairs and realized that it was the Men's section, so we walked out of Zara- HOLDING THE ITEMS WE WANTED. I think the sensor beeped but no one came out to check ._. So anyway. We didn't realize we were still holding the clothes until we were browsing at Charles and Keith's and I was wondering what it was that was flopped over my arm. (: LOL. We rushed back to Zara and the sensor beeped again and no one came again. So well, we could very well have stolen from Zara without anyone knowing! LOL :D But of course, I wouldn't think of stealing anywayzz :D

Ah well. I was super ultra tired that day! :D Hahahah 'cuz I slept at 1 the night before and we shopped 'til.. 7 plus? :D LOLL :D Nevertheless, it was average-ly fruitful :D Although I wish I could've bought as many things as Dot did.. She got like, 4 dresses, a Polo tee and bangles from F21, plus a pair of Zara shoes and shades from Cotton On. Oh, and she's sharing one of the high-waist skirts with me :D Unfair much! ): LOL. :D Never mind, I'll get my turn :D

Kayy. I think that's all for today :D

Baby (: About what happened to you last night. I guess I can't be of much help since it's your family and you're not me, but well. This sounds cliche but remember that I'm always here for you (: I'm glad I stopped you doing the crazy thing you were doing. :] The least I can do is to pray for you, which I will. I will definitely keep you in my prayers (: This is as much as I can do for you. I'll always love you (: If you feel like the whole world is against you, remember us (: I love you, baby (: Things will be okay. :D

2010-06-05T22:18:00.003+08:00

Hey.

I don't know what to feel. I'm sorry you had to read that FB message that sparked everything off. But when I tell you that you're not the things you call yourself, why can't you just believe me? Telling me to prove otherwise, to convince you otherwise is really hard. Plus, I believe you know that I'm really bad with words.

Sigh. Never mind. Stupid time limit screw it. This is as much as I can say for now. Please take care and I Love You.